Well i started going to the pool with the girlie's, it's good fun. When i don't go to the pool i go to the gym. I'm finding it hard to stay motivated and my food intake is just a mess. I'm currently 93.9kg so I've lost 5.4kg in 5 months. It's progress non the less, but i don't want it to take another 5 months to get to my 10% goal (89kg). So I'm proposing a challenge, lose double in the next 5 months.
Challenge.
1. First 5 months lost - 5.4kg
ACHIEVED
2. Second 5 months (4/4/09) - 10.8kg.

Enough about that.....
I've made some old new friends! You know they're the friends you use to spend all your time with and then just drifted apart. Been doing loads of stuff, swimming, BBQs, went to the movies, i even had everyone over to my place for a "dinner party" and i use the word dinner party loosely. It was a shambles but no one cared. I enjoyed myself. I've met some new people, there's been loads of drama and you know what i haven't had this much fun in years. My ex-beau doesn't much like my new old friends, he never really did to begin with. We had a real chat for the first time just the other day. this was sometime after he emails me and tells me he thinks he wants to get back with me. It spun me out hardcore, cause i thought i was moving on, i was happier than I'd been in years and was just doing my own thing. But as soon as he told me, it all just came flooding back and i was back to where i started from. AHHHHHHHHH. But then i asked him if he was still with blow rag and he said yep. what a tosser, you definitely break up with said rag and then tell me how your feeling. But once i found out he had no real intention of being with me, he just couldn't handle that i was getting on with my life and that i wasn't toatlly lost without him i totally let the emotions go. I do miss him, but there's more to life than just him. So I'm still chugging along. But what was weird was that he was all like your life has changed so much, you've changed so much. I don't know if there's any place for me anymore. When he was the one who didn't want to be in it. Anyways ova talking about it.

Well that movie thing was an absolute disaster, i spoke to Germ and we were all flirty it was waaaaaay wierd, but hayles said it's ok cause it's not serious and were friends. So it was kind fun, he said he would come to movies but not for a couple of days so i was like have to rain check. BUT ...... then two days after said flirt, ex-beau rants and raves that i've been intamate with Germ. NOT EVEN. I tried to tell him he'd lost the plot but then he started saying all this stuff he should not have known. I was like who the hell have you been talking to and wait for it..... Germ had told him all about the msgs. I was sooooooo cut, here i was trusting him not to cause any drama cause it is so not like that and he goes and tells ex-beau. AHHHHHHHHHH. So now i'm not talking to Germ.
But moving on.................

To go or not to go! That is the question.

Well i turned twenty one, not real exciting. Me and Mr Squishy are really truly ova. I don't think he's going to like it very much if i start seeing other people but it was his decision. He broke my heart, he wanted to sleep with other people. I was not going to hang around while he got his rocks off else where. So i am trying to keep it together. I've excepted that he is a tosser and i want to start having fun. I'm young and life is just beginning so what to do first. I don't have a clue. I haven't been to the movies in like two years, i used to like doing that so I'll start there. Now i don't want to go by myself, who could i go with? Gillian has a beau and a baby, and doesn't like taking said baby out after dark. Which is the only time i can go as i work all day. So next.... Blondie, has toddler and is very pregnant, single but likes to do things. But is difficult to find right time and said toddler may not sit through movie. Next....... Mr squishy said he still wants to be friends.... but he is sleeping with dirty blow rag who use to be some what of my friend and i can't stand being in the same room. Could ask to go by self but he has work issues as that's where he lives ( literally ) and he is always being butt head. Next..... oh wait that's it. While dating said butt head lost contact with tons of friends. ( will also have to work on getting in touch, but not for first movie ) There is Germ he might come but he is butt heads friend too and it might be weird to ask him out as we never did anything without butt head. Hmmm there is no one else and he works same hours, no kids or commitments that i know of, did let me borrow car the other day. I could ask there's no harm it that. I will I'll ask, just as friends, no sexual innuendo. It's neva been like that with Germ. He'll know it's just hanging out. I hope he does otherwise that will only leave me with two and a half friends. How terribly sad does my life look written down on paper/screen. I've got three and a half friends. No wonder I've been going insane with loneliness. Here i thought it was because of a - hole ex beau. Well will have to find more than just a movie to pump the life back into me! What else i could take a creative class might meet new people and learn a new skill in the process. OK I have a plan. I'll let you know how it goes

Thursday, 17th july 2008

Well i've been going to the gym for almost a month and i love it. I go six days a week for one hour a day. I never thought i would enjoy exercise but i do. Not everyday is a good day and there are still more bad day's than good but it's a REAL start. wish me luck.

Friday, 30th of May

Day 2

Breakfast: 4 pieces of raisin toast with butter.

Random: 3 small pieces of chocolate cake. (homemade)

Random: 2 slices of raisin toast with butter

Lunch: 1 small serve hot chips and gravy, 300ml choc milk

Random: 600ml Sunkist (soft drink)

Random: 1 Mintie, 1 Fantale, 1 Milko, 1 Sherbie.

Thought i'd add physical activities too, seeing as my goal below wants 45 mins walking.
Walked to work, walked home, walked up to the bank and back to work.

I am sick and tired of making goals and not ever, ever completing them. One day I get all excited like yeah I can do this by the next day it's like why even bother. I just want to complete something in my life. I'm always starting things but never get any where. Well like all those other days today is different. I need to get off my lazy ass and do something. I am going to start with the weight loss it's very important for me to do it. Not just so I can look good but the health benefits are way huge and me being this unhealthy and overweight may affect my fertility and I'd like to start thinking about children in about a years time so now is perfect to start losing weight. Alright goal one:
Walk briskly for 45 Min's everyday, start using your pedometer and aim to reach 15000 steps everyday.

When I have done this for three weeks straight then I can start to work on another goal.

I'm Back

Hey Hey,
Look I decided that I will write a food diary but I never seem to take much notice of it. So I thought I might be able to make myself more accountable if I make a food blog. So here goes it's the 29th May 2008 I weight 99.3 kilos and I need to get down to 70 kilos to be in the very last of a healthy weight for me. I'm 165cm tall and am in size 20 clothes the last bra I bought was a size 18 E.

Breakfast: 1 serving of coco pops with full cream milk

Random: 2 handfuls of malteasers

Lunch: Pie, tomato sauce, half a glass of lemonade.

Random: a whole block of cadbury's dairy milk Rocky Road chocolate.

Random: 1 heart ice cream

Dinner: 1 crumbed fish wrap (1 piece of crumb fish;oven baked, lettuce, cheese, beetroot and mayo), 1 crumbed fish piece, 1 1/2 handfuls of deep fried chips with BBQ sauce.

Random: 2 heart ice creams

Water: about 700ml