To go or not to go! That is the question.

Well i turned twenty one, not real exciting. Me and Mr Squishy are really truly ova. I don't think he's going to like it very much if i start seeing other people but it was his decision. He broke my heart, he wanted to sleep with other people. I was not going to hang around while he got his rocks off else where. So i am trying to keep it together. I've excepted that he is a tosser and i want to start having fun. I'm young and life is just beginning so what to do first. I don't have a clue. I haven't been to the movies in like two years, i used to like doing that so I'll start there. Now i don't want to go by myself, who could i go with? Gillian has a beau and a baby, and doesn't like taking said baby out after dark. Which is the only time i can go as i work all day. So next.... Blondie, has toddler and is very pregnant, single but likes to do things. But is difficult to find right time and said toddler may not sit through movie. Next....... Mr squishy said he still wants to be friends.... but he is sleeping with dirty blow rag who use to be some what of my friend and i can't stand being in the same room. Could ask to go by self but he has work issues as that's where he lives ( literally ) and he is always being butt head. Next..... oh wait that's it. While dating said butt head lost contact with tons of friends. ( will also have to work on getting in touch, but not for first movie ) There is Germ he might come but he is butt heads friend too and it might be weird to ask him out as we never did anything without butt head. Hmmm there is no one else and he works same hours, no kids or commitments that i know of, did let me borrow car the other day. I could ask there's no harm it that. I will I'll ask, just as friends, no sexual innuendo. It's neva been like that with Germ. He'll know it's just hanging out. I hope he does otherwise that will only leave me with two and a half friends. How terribly sad does my life look written down on paper/screen. I've got three and a half friends. No wonder I've been going insane with loneliness. Here i thought it was because of a - hole ex beau. Well will have to find more than just a movie to pump the life back into me! What else i could take a creative class might meet new people and learn a new skill in the process. OK I have a plan. I'll let you know how it goes